I didn’t get to see my dad today… but I’m glad he got my present yesterday :) I bought him this book/journal where he can share his story - a father’s legacy. It asks questions simple and complex. From what are the names of your children to hopes and dreams of the future. It asks him about his childhood and growing up. And it just gradually gets deeper the farther you go. I’m praying that he will actually complete the whole thing one day at a time. I know he’s going through a lot right now and I just think this book will be a good reflection process for him. He told me last month that he feels as though he has no purpose at the moment. And I can see why because his kids are all grown up and independent and he’s not really working right now. I feel like my dad isn’t the same person he used to be and I’m just hoping he gets better whatever it may be.

What really hurts is that him and my brother aren’t really talking lately and I know my brother feels like he’s never had a real dad bc he wasn’t there when he was growing up - physically. I’m also praying that my brother will forgive my dad for whatever wrong he feels may have been done to him. And that he realizes that he’s still our dad no matter what. We wouldn’t be granted this gift of life if he wasn’t here. It just breaks my heart to see them not be cool anymore like they used to be and I see dads and sons today having a good time…

I’m also hoping that if my brother can’t accept our physical biological dad right now that he does turn to the heavenly father for guidance or whatever it is he needs.

Other than that I still feel so blessed regardless of what I may not have :) all I can do at the moment is slowly put my family back together and pray that things will be brighter for them.